4 TIMES MY DEAREST

I've missed you so very very much, since that last night we were together. I will hold that night in my memory for the rest of my life. I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately.

I've read your letter through at least 4 times. i'll probably read it more times before i am through. I've been sitting here, looking at your picture and getting more upset, trying my hardest not to cry. I've wanted that picture more than anything else i know of. exept of course, you, yourself...

I keep thinking of you, Darling... Keep wishing you would come back to me. I want to be with you so badly that i think to myself "should i kill myself for him, to show him how much i love him?"... i want to see you so badly, but, things don't look so good in that subject... Coz i know your never gonna come back to me. But i just hope that this letter changes your mind...

I've never been so lonesum in my life as i am right now. I'm completely lost without you, Darling. I never realized i could miss only one person so much. i just hope it won't be too much longer until i'm able to be with you again...

And live a sane and normal life with you again... With all my love from now till forever.. Êeven if my heart is breaking...

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