NOT FOR THE BETTER


I used to love it when we'd go to the bleachers, the way you'd hold me so tight and talk about anything, I knew then that I loved your company, you made me feel complete.

I used to love it when you'd walk me home, or before walking me home we'd go to the park and just make out. You complete me...

I used to love all the small things you did or even got me, the single rose out of the blues, the poems, the letters, or even just the phone calls to tell me you loved me.

Then you began to change, but not for the better, I just didn't want to let you go because you ment so much to me. So, I tried to understand and accept it. Then more of it started to happen.

I'm beginning to think you've forgotten about me, you tell me that I should change and start accepting whom you're becoming. Do you know how hard it is when you miss that person so much.

I feel like you don't listen when I talk to you anymore. I no longer get those little things. You never ask me on dates anymore, what happened?

Sometimes I feel like giving up on us, throwing four years away but I can't, I'm crazy about you even till this day, even till all the changes you're making with yourself. I accept you more than you think, you're just not realizing it.

I don't think I've spent an actual day with you in a really long time. You're even taking my weekends away. You probably don't care to realize but the tears don't stop falling.

You may begin to call me a cry baby, but if only you knew how it felt. The love you have for that one person, the touch you wish for, and the kiss you long for. I'm just a girl in love and she really misses her boyfriend, more than life itself.

You hurt me when you don't answer or even call. They all say I'm lucky to have you, yet they don't realize how lucky you are to have me in your life. I'm your number 1 fan. And I love you with all my heart.