NOT ONE ATOM IN THE UNIVERSE


I know that if you knew, you'd be disgraced. I know that if I told, you'd be at a loss, for once, for words. Which is why, you see, I have to tell; why you have to know: no grace is so worthy, no sound so bless'd, that doesn't need to be quelled once in a while. So this is what it is that I have to tell you, need to tell you, must tell you, before my heart bursts and though it may mean the little death of you:

Though you think this trite, I know it to be true: I love you. Though a sea of blood separate us; a wall of the strongest brick and mortar be built around us; an Angel of the LORD Himself do us halve with his sword a-blazing; the truth, the truth, the truth! When we first met, did you not demand, in the first few words exchanged, an entirely honest conversation between us? And have I not, in all my encounters with you, been nothing but? Then, my love, consider this but a natural extension of our honoured honesty: that I should have to keep it quiet any longer kills me inside, so in all honesty I come to you, and say, I love you.

And now that I have said it, what has changed? What fundamental principal of nature has been so drastically altered so that the world that we built together can no longer be, which Law has been amended to make this anything less of a relationship, of a bridge between us? Consider this, lover mine, and answer me with all the honesty that I afforded you: tell me what it is that changed when you read this? And I can answer that for you, with the surity of sages: not one atom in the Universe, not one thought in your head, not one ounce of feeling in your heart.

But, I know the need for time. And it is time which grants us honesty's luxury, so I will wallow in its splendors for a while longer yet, whilst I await your reply.