My Dearest _____,

I feel compelled to write. It's been almost 1 year since the last time I saw you. I miss you so much. I think about you every single day. And everyday I'm suprised at how strong my love for you remains.

My heart jumps when I see a car like yours. I cannot listen to music you and I shared. And I am unable to be happy with anyone else. The most painful part of it all is that I dont know what you're up to. Are you happy? Are you in love? Do you miss me? Do you ever think about me?

And the guilt that I carry with me is killing me. I cry everytime I think about how I let you go. And as I was telling you that it could not be I knew it would be something I would regret for the rest of my life. And now life is so different.

We both have families now and there is probably no chance of being together again. When I think about you the pain is almost physical. I miss you so much I wonder if you ever feel me. Do you ever hear me cry out to you. The connection that we had was so amazing, how could it be gone?

I miss you so much I am not happy at home, with friends, at work. And my being screams for the emptyness you were starting to fill. Now it seems its only gotten deeper with sorrow. I have never felt as happy as you made me in those months that we shared.

I will miss you for the rest of my life just like I thought I would. And I regret not sacrificing it all for the love you had to offer. I'm so sorry.

Please God I need my _____ back...

[submitted 05/12/03]