One glorious week...we laughed and swam and played and prepared glorious meals....and slept........we were two different drums beating and happy and full of excitement........you said you were happy......I can still feel your bear hug kisses and the feel of my head in your lap and your hand upon my head.......comfortable....relaxed.....at HOME you said.....

then you left...and no one has seen you since...we are all worried......I pray you are safe....and I am sorry I was so cautious and silent and would not let you see into my heart....but I ran home that day and left you notes..........I had bought light bulbs for the kitchen and a new saute pan for you and I could not wait to show you how much I remembered every word you said.....and how you were growing on me despite my best efforts and walls....and now ...I am empty and there is a big whole in my chest.....panic.....where are you?....I could not have been so wrong.....could I?

[submitted 05/12/03]