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STRANGE FAMILY
You, I know you. You look at me and I have to remind myself to breathe and my heart to beat. And the only thing showing in those eyes of yours is overwhelming desire. Desire to break me in two. To reach inside me and take the heart I pretend is tattered yet hard, even though we all know is susceptible to... anything, and tear it apart. And I know its not that you want to hurt me or make me some horrible person. You just want to own and consume me. And even though I know how wrong it is, I long for you more than any person I've ever known. You live in the back of my mind, dwelling in the shadows, hiding the fact that I love you, until we are face to face, as we are once or so a year. And you pretend not to see me. Yet, as you walk past me, you hand will brush my arm or your leg my knee. But, you must not know me or it would all be given away. They would know what we tried so hard to hide. But, some do see. The girlfriends you bring to parade in front of me as a way to cover the desire you fight to control. And the boyfriends I warn far in advance about my "strange family". They notice. And the kids that walk into the dark garage to find us jumping away from each other, hands shoved deep into pockets and wiping lip gloss back into place. They notice. And they try and keep us apart in their unspoken way. But, they can't. Because, in the dark, when your hands are running over me through my clothes because we can't afford to get too close. Then I am yours. And when you pull me to you in a "brotherly hug' at the wedding. Then I am yours. I can date all of them, all your friends, in an effort to get closer to you. But, all it does is push you farther away. And you can look through me, girlfriend pulling your sleeve, telling you she's ready to leave. All the while you stare into me with those eyes and girlfriend has no idea she just pushing you closer back to me. I know you. Me _____ |