I miss you my dear. Always missing you, it seems. I'm happy, so happy to have had you in my life, all these years and more so now, because you now know how I feel (and have felt) about you for a long time.

I'm sad because I can't show you everyday how I feel about you and because I don't know when that will finally happen, forever. I'd like to think that it'll be someday soon, but also know that I'll have to wait. I was the one who kept saying we need time... but quite frankly, I don't want to wait... because I feel we shouldn't have to wait... because we already know so much about each other. However, the safest bet would be to wait. Why? I ask myself... Because we want to be sure. Why? Because of the serious implications.

Sigh... This is painful. I guess its expected to be painful... We knew that at the beginning of our new-found relationship but just didn't know how painful it could be. We knew it was going to be hard... and Boy! is this tough! Like I said to you on the phone, not in these words, but... you are worth all of this. Us being Us will be worth it. I feel it and I just know it. I can't explain it any other way. Everything else is just everything else. I think as strong as my feelings are for you and as strong as the feelings I get from you, together will help us deal with everything else we come across.

I want to be with you, to make you happy, for us to be happy. Just don't know when or how we'll get there. Someday... God willing, someday.

Love & Kisses,
Your Lady Bug

[submitted 05/15/03]