VACATION


Hey You Stupid Jerk!!!

Do you hear me in your far off place, in your own heaven? Do you think you are so special, leaving on your "vacation" without telling me or anyone else?

So I f*cked up -- I was going to see you at Christmas - Instead of me coming at Thanksgiving - I was going to come, I swear! Couldn't you have waited two more weeks?

I am tired of asking these questions and you not answering me. I am tired of thinking of you for the past nine years and knowing that nothing will change.

I am tired of trying to keep you on "vacation".

Keeping you on "vacation" gave me hope that you might return, by some miracle or answered prayer --

You can't come back and I can't go to you. I need to say it, just say it. My denial has to stop - Stop here, Stop now.

I love you

I miss you

I am sorry I didn't come when I should have.

I am sorry that you died. And I am sorry that your "vacation" has to end.




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