My lost treasure, The circle is closed.

It's been a year now and I feel like anything that happened in my life meanwhile wasn't big enough to be compared to the hapiness i had with you and to the void that's left after you dissapeard from my life.

Everything looks preaty much the same - my house, my dog, my friends and sweet smell of winter, so sometimes I feel happy like it fell when I found you a year ago. Sometimes I feel like I'm still your girl and, so warm and safe, but then I get the need to share that feeling with you and then it breaks into thousand pieces - you're not mine and my call would probably bother you.

I don't ask myself who is to blame, I don't hope that someday you will show up; after everything that happened going back would be like whiteness of the first snow spoiled by someone's dirty shoe. It's just hard to believe that our dreams will never come true, that small guy will never exist, that you're hers as much as I'm his although I'm sure we belong to each other and the crazy way we found each other was a message from God that we should spend our lives together.

It doesn't really matter. I'll rather live averidge love then try to force somethinf that was ment to be.

[submitted 11/12/03]