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Him: I'm back in Kabul finally. Never been more ready to get back here. Just wanted to say that I am sorry for any grief that I caused. You just have to understand that there is just no way that I can see you casually. I am just too emotional and tenderhearted. I missed our companionship badly and missed talking to you. But I had to do this and you have to understand that it would never have worked for us in the long run. It just would not work no matter how much we loved each other. Anyway, I hope sometime soon I will not feel like i do now, which is lonely. I know that with time it goes away. Just know that I do love you, and it was not easy for me but had to be done. I am sorry. Me: I don't want you casually, I'm so sorry for what has happened, I want you every day, every minute, only you. I miss you so much you just don't know, I wish I could turn off my feelings, some medicine I could take, anything, I would. You're all I think about, it consumes me. You're gone, I can't knock on your door and demand you to talk things through, you won't respond when I send you messages or packages and I just want run away and I can't, I don't know how to fix these feelings, I just want to leave, I just want to go far away from here, I hate this feeling and it won't go away and I feel guilty for feeling this way. It just feels like there's no one else but you for me. I don't know why you have to be so determined it would have never worked, we had something worth working on honey. I was never more comfortable with anyone else than with you, I'm not an easy fit for just anyone sweetheart, neither are you. The only thing coming between us is 10000 miles but I'll wait if you'll just come home to me some day. |