Hey you,

When I left I was heartbroken and angry. I felt used and betrayed. I was certain that you never cared about me and it was all just a game to you. I was ashamed of myself for being so foolish. I wanted to hate you and for a long time I tried. Fast forward two years to the funeral. I hoped we wouldn't have to speak, hoped I could fly under the radar and be gone before anyone noticed I was there. I was not prepared for you to be the first person I saw when I walked through the door. Almost as if you were waiting for me. As soon as our eyes met the look on your face shook my resolve and my heart melted. Could you fake that look of adoration? Maybe...but still it makes me wonder. I was so flustered and overwhelmed with emotions I know I stumbled over my words. I had so much I wanted to say and at the same time I didn't know what to say to you. I am where I want to be,I love my life and I love my family, but I can't stop thinking about you. I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye, I wish we could have parted on better terms. On occasion when I go home to visit I will see you in passing, I smile and say hi as if you were any other casual aquaintance. In these moments my heart is full of so many things I can never tell you. I miss you, I forgive you, and I will always love you.

the love letter collection
submitted 5:27 PM EST
Wednesday, November 9, 2011